The Bed Tuck


I tucked you in bed
I saw your body curl up
Surrendered and trusting
My body sat alert 3 feet away
You in fetal position
Me awkwardly breathing, tight and tense
just watching you sleep...

4 seconds.

I counted in my head

1, 2, 3, 4

And my instinct told me it peaked
Now is the time I slowly get up
And leave you be...

I crawl back to my couch
Placing hand on my open heart
Feeling the sensation coursing through me
Pride for respecting boundaries
Wonder for whether I misread everything
Longing and love rule supreme
(Im)patiently waiting for the next morning...

- T.Lin.