What does that pain feel like?

What does that pain feel like?
It feels like it shouldn't be

There should be no such pain,
that constricts the heart yet makes it beat faster

Sticks it up in the throat
so high
I might want to throw it up.

Throw it out.

When it beats
too fast, too hard
it pushes tears out my
already stinging eyes

the smoke of the fire pit
the tedious talking
and the absence of you

I want to curl up in my sleeping bag
but it is so cold.

Can I have a hug?

Though I already know -
it will soothe for a split second,
then add days of pain.

I'll take it.

- Evelyne M.

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